Post by sabo on Aug 2, 2009 22:21:45 GMT 1
To all of the former SoF2 Demo Players. I dont know if you know Topgun from ))ICED(( or if you care about him. He quit demo and here is his apology/retirement speech...
TopGun AKA RoCK
Hello from RoCK aka Top Gun.............................................. and THANKS to ALL who helped out and made it all work. Hang in with Dinks hes GOT good stuff coming!!!!
This is my farewell speech about why I am Quitting Sof. And also some explanations about a few things, and my experience in SOF. PLZ READ this to hear my apologies and more.
I am quitting SOF, wow I cant believe this, BUT I have to do it. I am addicted to sof. It is taking so much time and keeping me, or I have allowed my addiction to keep me from getting a job. So I just have to stop playing SOF until I have a JOB, and then I would only play when able to. I have told some ppl that I will continue to run the 2 servers and teamspeak but after waking up a bit more have decided that I am NOT going to continue to run the servers for Dink on DM and MAPS. If you want any files I have and ur DINK or MRTH or someone like that get with me tommorow, before I close sof off from my life.
I will also be getting a new email and will not read OR REPLY TO any messages from my email account after tommorrow, AND WILL TRY to reply to all emails I have if possible
My DM and MAPS server will be closed between 8 and 12 pm central time on Thursday July 30th 2009. Teamspeak will also go with msn aim and vent, and any other forms of communication I have that wud get me back into SOF.
NOS will get the websites and be main admin on that if he wants or I can just delete it if not.
Below is my apology begining with some info about my experience in sof.
When I began playing SOF I immediately became addicted, about 3 yrs ago or more.
I played in DINKS server because he had one shot kill weapons or at least some of them were. I had a great time playing sof as a noob lol. I have only played multiplayer games like DOOM, Hexen, ROTT, Duke3d, Heretic, all modem to modem, played quake once or twice on a friends pcon the net, and then came across SOF and loved it better than all of the others. Then I ran into hackers, and asked Dink if I could be his admin, and he made me admin EVENTUALLY after much begging lol. MY POINT is that I had no clue of hackers b4 SOF and I really didnt like getting owned by hackers. THEN I joined ))ICE(( and asked ppl to come with me to make ))ICED((. and went on to cause all these problems, but in DINKS server I only Kicked ppl when no one wud EVER dispute that they DONT HACK... POINT IS I have made ALOT of mistakes over the years in kicking ppl and banning ppl that were not hacking. ANY admin will make these mistakes, BUT I want to apologize to all that I kicked or banned where i was wrong. I have always strived to do what was right in trying to keep hackers out, and discussed with many ppl things like score limits. HOWEVER I only learned how to use WH as a tool to spec hackers about 3 months ago, and that limited us, all who were involved, to making score limits, NOW I go in spec, turn WH on and can usually very easily tell if somone is using WH since i can see them following ppl thru walls and all. STILL I am sure That I STILL made MISTAKES and have STILL kicked ppl , that were not WH. But specing with WH is ALOT more ACCURATE than anything I have DONE B4
MY final comment on this is I APOLOGIZE to all who were treated unfairly by me whether it be from kicking, banning, or just giving my usual asshole comments that were OUT OF LINE on my part. I regret having to LEAVE SOF on these terms, and wish I could talk personally to each one of you who I did a wrong to and apologize, but thats not possible so the best Ican do is hope this message finds you , and hope you accept my apology. FOR the few who have done me wrong I forgive you as well and hope to come play sof as a better person someday.
But I just wanted to say this to remind us how easy it is to misbehave and have alternate personalities especially in this crazy world of the internet and gaming. To make this story short I am just saying that I was a noob to this internet world begining 3 yrs ago and thought what a nice place to act a fool... and I did. NOW its time for this fool to walk away in shame hoping that this message reaches some of the ppl whom I am apologizing to. I do believe when we do someone wrong, no matter how small it may be, or how big of an offence it may be, we should be wise enough to see we were wrong and apologize and be friends if possible.
Today as I made my decision to end my addiction with SOF I am reminded of many things I once learned, and thought I KNEW, but obviously I forgot. I learned we all were born with a hole in our heart, that needs to be filled with something, and for many of us that hole is ripped many more times and forms a bigger hole. Problems in our lives, from bad parents and abuse, etc make the hole in our heart bigger and this creates more emptyness and leads to addictions, to; drugs, alcohol, the list is too long to say, and addictions like sof and these much harder core things are used to fill this hole..but we should strive to assist each other and not tear, down, mistreat, harrass, etc each other. Im sure if I researched an addiction like sof and computer games I would find that its realated to the pleasure center of our brains which releases a chemical called dopamine, that we get when we laugh and feel all sorts of different pleasures, this is released when we play sof and its an easy to have fun and pleasure in sof, immeditate gratification on each frag, etc etc etc etc, so we keep coming back for more and ppl like me with addictive personalities and bigger holes in their hearts than the average person are easily hooked and b4 u know it you wasted 2 yrs of your life, and made a fool of ur self in the process. This is just me I cant speak for all of you. I guess I am hoping for some tidbit of redemption from the things I have done by passing along this information and sending out my apology.
I am glad to have met all of you and it was great being friends with you all, if things go well I will drop by and say hi and see whose still around, but I have promised myself that I will not do that until I am employed or a quick visit ariund set 1st. I hope you dont get me wrong and think all this addiction stuff applies to all of you and stop playing sof, but I do hope its not an addiction for you, and only you can decide if it is or not.
TopGun AKA RoCK
Hello from RoCK aka Top Gun.............................................. and THANKS to ALL who helped out and made it all work. Hang in with Dinks hes GOT good stuff coming!!!!
This is my farewell speech about why I am Quitting Sof. And also some explanations about a few things, and my experience in SOF. PLZ READ this to hear my apologies and more.
I am quitting SOF, wow I cant believe this, BUT I have to do it. I am addicted to sof. It is taking so much time and keeping me, or I have allowed my addiction to keep me from getting a job. So I just have to stop playing SOF until I have a JOB, and then I would only play when able to. I have told some ppl that I will continue to run the 2 servers and teamspeak but after waking up a bit more have decided that I am NOT going to continue to run the servers for Dink on DM and MAPS. If you want any files I have and ur DINK or MRTH or someone like that get with me tommorow, before I close sof off from my life.
I will also be getting a new email and will not read OR REPLY TO any messages from my email account after tommorrow, AND WILL TRY to reply to all emails I have if possible
My DM and MAPS server will be closed between 8 and 12 pm central time on Thursday July 30th 2009. Teamspeak will also go with msn aim and vent, and any other forms of communication I have that wud get me back into SOF.
NOS will get the websites and be main admin on that if he wants or I can just delete it if not.
Below is my apology begining with some info about my experience in sof.
When I began playing SOF I immediately became addicted, about 3 yrs ago or more.
I played in DINKS server because he had one shot kill weapons or at least some of them were. I had a great time playing sof as a noob lol. I have only played multiplayer games like DOOM, Hexen, ROTT, Duke3d, Heretic, all modem to modem, played quake once or twice on a friends pcon the net, and then came across SOF and loved it better than all of the others. Then I ran into hackers, and asked Dink if I could be his admin, and he made me admin EVENTUALLY after much begging lol. MY POINT is that I had no clue of hackers b4 SOF and I really didnt like getting owned by hackers. THEN I joined ))ICE(( and asked ppl to come with me to make ))ICED((. and went on to cause all these problems, but in DINKS server I only Kicked ppl when no one wud EVER dispute that they DONT HACK... POINT IS I have made ALOT of mistakes over the years in kicking ppl and banning ppl that were not hacking. ANY admin will make these mistakes, BUT I want to apologize to all that I kicked or banned where i was wrong. I have always strived to do what was right in trying to keep hackers out, and discussed with many ppl things like score limits. HOWEVER I only learned how to use WH as a tool to spec hackers about 3 months ago, and that limited us, all who were involved, to making score limits, NOW I go in spec, turn WH on and can usually very easily tell if somone is using WH since i can see them following ppl thru walls and all. STILL I am sure That I STILL made MISTAKES and have STILL kicked ppl , that were not WH. But specing with WH is ALOT more ACCURATE than anything I have DONE B4
MY final comment on this is I APOLOGIZE to all who were treated unfairly by me whether it be from kicking, banning, or just giving my usual asshole comments that were OUT OF LINE on my part. I regret having to LEAVE SOF on these terms, and wish I could talk personally to each one of you who I did a wrong to and apologize, but thats not possible so the best Ican do is hope this message finds you , and hope you accept my apology. FOR the few who have done me wrong I forgive you as well and hope to come play sof as a better person someday.
But I just wanted to say this to remind us how easy it is to misbehave and have alternate personalities especially in this crazy world of the internet and gaming. To make this story short I am just saying that I was a noob to this internet world begining 3 yrs ago and thought what a nice place to act a fool... and I did. NOW its time for this fool to walk away in shame hoping that this message reaches some of the ppl whom I am apologizing to. I do believe when we do someone wrong, no matter how small it may be, or how big of an offence it may be, we should be wise enough to see we were wrong and apologize and be friends if possible.
Today as I made my decision to end my addiction with SOF I am reminded of many things I once learned, and thought I KNEW, but obviously I forgot. I learned we all were born with a hole in our heart, that needs to be filled with something, and for many of us that hole is ripped many more times and forms a bigger hole. Problems in our lives, from bad parents and abuse, etc make the hole in our heart bigger and this creates more emptyness and leads to addictions, to; drugs, alcohol, the list is too long to say, and addictions like sof and these much harder core things are used to fill this hole..but we should strive to assist each other and not tear, down, mistreat, harrass, etc each other. Im sure if I researched an addiction like sof and computer games I would find that its realated to the pleasure center of our brains which releases a chemical called dopamine, that we get when we laugh and feel all sorts of different pleasures, this is released when we play sof and its an easy to have fun and pleasure in sof, immeditate gratification on each frag, etc etc etc etc, so we keep coming back for more and ppl like me with addictive personalities and bigger holes in their hearts than the average person are easily hooked and b4 u know it you wasted 2 yrs of your life, and made a fool of ur self in the process. This is just me I cant speak for all of you. I guess I am hoping for some tidbit of redemption from the things I have done by passing along this information and sending out my apology.
I am glad to have met all of you and it was great being friends with you all, if things go well I will drop by and say hi and see whose still around, but I have promised myself that I will not do that until I am employed or a quick visit ariund set 1st. I hope you dont get me wrong and think all this addiction stuff applies to all of you and stop playing sof, but I do hope its not an addiction for you, and only you can decide if it is or not.
Your a tad late dude. Know how that dude feels though, SOF is too addicting sometimes 
